Going into 2009

Current mood: contemplative

I may be a little bit late on the resolution band wagon, but i was so unsure of what I truly wanted to change or work on this year- and stick with it. In most cases, people make resolutions and break them as quick as March because they are treated like Diet - the temporary fix. I have a bad habit of this... On that note, that could be my resolution too, hmm, I may secretly add that to my mental list. .... 'noted'....

There are three main focuses I want to better in 2009.

1. Family - I want to start a journal of all the wonderful amazing moments that we share with Ally. Each night and each morning, I wish i would find the time to Blog about all the funny things she says or the amazing way she makes me feel, and how tremendously blessed we are to have received her from God.

2. Health - Yeah on an honest level, I NEED and truly want to lose weight, but I decided that I'm tired of figuring out what "diet" will work or what I will 'give up' to lose weight. I'm giving up all of those feelings and am going to focus on just being healthy. I've started off by finally after years of saying I would; made an appt with my doctor to get my thyroid checked among other things. Those of you who know me - this is a big deal. The fact that blood has to be drawn was the only reason I have refused to go see a doctor. I have Patrick to make sure I go... I don't eat terribly, but I am also in spurts. I answer my cravings for the most part but not with enough discipline. If I crave corn nuts, instead of enjoying a handful, I'm going to enjoy the entire bag, even when I know I've had enough. In the summer of 2007 when I became a vegetarian, I felt incredible. I ate vegetables and fruits, organic pastas and nothing that was made with any sort of animal product. I lost weight, felt healthier and was really excited about it, but it was so expensive and trying to feed my family and myself because such a challenge, so after a year (maybe less than), I gave up on myself. So- here goes... day by day, meal by meal. And - I need to find something I love to stay active. Anyone in the Pittsburgh want to watch Ally on Monday nights for free so I can take dance again???

3. Spirit - I expect my relationship with God to grow and I want him to use me to live out his will. I want my relationship with Patrick to grow together to begin our marriage in the way a marriage should be... full of love, blessings and the desire to grow closer together as a couple, as a family and to God. I want to give more of myself and make more selfless sacrifices for my family and not have the selfish attitude that overrides those actions. Most of all, I want to be the mother my daughter looks up to and the person my husband falls in love with a little bit more everyday.

I've learned from 2008 that life WILL in fact surprise you, if you pray, you WILL get answers, that people take relationship and special friendships for granted. Time is the most important thing you can give - give it to your family, but don't forget about your friends... they deserve your time too.