Simply because its Friday

Current mood: cooky/wacky

for some reason my mind is SO not here at work. I've got a stack piled to each side of me and a 'to do' list that is only halfway checked off. Nothing too hard or overwhelming, and I know I could actually get all of it done by the time I leave (including the fact I am leaving early today) but I just cannot make myself get motivated. Obviously - I am on myspace. :) I also just opened a can of Diet Mountain Dew. HA! Noy much of a soda drinker (or POP as they call it here) but I guess I need the caffeine, the carbonation and the uh, yellow 5. lol

Last night all three of us worked out at the house close till 11pm. We are so tired. Not to mention the fact that Patrick works at 6am on Fridays as well as closes at Sears, so he literally works a 15+ hour day. Oh! and I forgot to mention that Nadia 'ran away' last night. lol, yep- we walked outside to load up in the jeep, she had to pee, so I waite dpatiently with passenger door open and she turned, looke dat me and was off! I yelled her name, and she just ran faster. Well, our new neighborhood is scarcly dark at night. Minutes later Patrick found her ( he went searching by truck)..... lets just say - Nadia and Patrick are still NOT speaking.

I had only two things to chose from to wear this morning (because everything is packed and at the other house) so I decided on the black vs. the black, yellow and white dress. hehehe well , little did I know the sun would go into hiding today and that the weather would drop 20 degrees. I am freezing my tukas off! I have a mini space heater going at my feet - on high, and I have a fleece scarf around my neck. My boss thinks I am a real piece of work - as he takes off as many layers as possible - he is hot. Go figure.

I'm craving pumpkin pie, french fries, and Blue Diamond Smokehouse almonds. Hmmm, where I CAN GET SOME OF THOSE??

I've gotten excited about this wedding planning process, I've written exactly what I want on many sheets of paper- when the thought comes to me. Its quite humorous. A lady on the bus this morning sat down next to me and as I was drawing stick figures with names across their chests she gave me a questionable look. I just smiled. I wanted to say ' I'm planning my wedding party's entrance'! lol, like she would have really cared and really I think I enjoyed the fact that she was questioning my adult artistic ability.

ok, I'm going to try to get going on my work projects... the caffeine has hit a tiny bot and it's almost lunch time AND.... I only have 3.5 -4 hours left of my day!

It's Noon

Current mood: distractable

It must be exactly 12pm, noon. The church bells down the street at the Church of Christ Cathedral are ringing - ding, ding, ding.

I'm at work, miserable. It could be there is so much to do at my apartment, at the new house. Walls to be painted, rooms to be decorated. Or it could be I just want to save up my energy for my daughter and Patrick, or it could be that work, for the past couple of months, has been absolutely tense and exhausting. The beauty of my job is the simple fact that its not hard, stressfree and i enjoyed it because it was constantly changing. Lately its been the entire opposite. I still love the people I work with, but I've seen some colors shine that I prefer know not exist. Everybody goes through trying times and their lives seem to close up and any ugliness that they may have does begin to take over, however- as soon as it happens, in my mind, you realize it, slap yourself, and snap out of it! Why does everyone else have to be miserable with you?!?

Apart of me also goes back to my 'plan'. I've always wanted to do so many other things and go to school etc. Of course there have always been excuses for why I havent done any of those , and at this point, I am now a home owner- woo hoo - which means " YOU MUST WORK!" lol.... so obviously 'not working' is no longer an option. I wonder what will happen when Ally starts school - real school. she'll start later and end earlier... so then what? I want to be home when my daughter gets home from school, I want to help her get ready in the mornings. This is very important to me.

I know several people that 'work from home' who always rant and rave how fabulous it is to be home, and though only a pinch jealous - I have no desire to sell products out of my home via parties, sales calls, website sales etc. well, unless its Partylite. LOL I see it work wonders for people, but I don't think I could ever be that self motivated. HELLO- i can never go to the gym, even if I am in the parking lot! Funny thing is... one of my strong points as a manager and as an employee is I was always so great at self motivation! ha!

I wish I would've finished school to get my teaching credentials... that would be ideal.

I wish I could make a career out of planning our life together.. the house, Ally's school, her dance and the wedding. So far, plans with the wedding have been very smooth. Its still a challenge. We are doing this all by ourselves. No financial or planning help from anyone. Lots of people do that I know... but I wonder if they have a house, a three year old, and 9 months to save for a 'nice' wedding'. If so - please share some advice and words of wisdom... It will happen, I'm really not worried about it- which is so not me! I usually will find something to worry about. ... there is still time....

off to get some food....